Tears
rolled down my face as I was wheeled out of the Moscone Conference Center in
San Francisco at the end of my poster session on Friday. It was a busy week at
the American Geophysical Union meeting that started Sunday evening, stretching
all the way to Friday afternoon. I’m not sure I’m ready to give science up just
yet. If I could manage a week in a busy city with 20,000 attendees,
perhaps—just perhaps—I could do this again.
With
my husband Chris Swarth and trusted assistant Jeanette Westbrook, we traveled
over 10 miles with me in the “Cougar” wheelchair, a light-weight aluminum
manual chair, over cable car tracks and through San Francisco’s busy streets.
There were no accidents, no falls, and we arrived at our appointments every day
on time. For me, it was akin to running a marathon.
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Jeanette Westbrook and Marilyn, AGU |
Planning
a trip for a disabled person with limited physical abilities like myself
requires a lot of forethought and thinking. Our Subaru Outback was loaded down
with accessibility gear needed to exist in a hotel environment not customized
to my needs. I quipped that traveling with me is similar to traveling with a
2-year old. Although we had an
accessible room in theory, in practice without all of our equipment I wouldn’t
have been able to use the bed or the bathroom. Even in a major hotel that is
part of an international chain details on what makes a room “accessible” are
not as well thought out as they should be. My tolerances for moving around are
at the 1-inch level (about 2 centimeters), which is much more demanding than
what might be the “average” disabled person.
Even
in the newly renovated convention center, it lacked single-use, gender-neutral
restrooms which are critical for families and people like myself. Entrances to the
building had only one place with an automatic door button, often located in an
area far from where it was most convenient to enter. Without help from
colleagues, it would have been difficult to make it around and gain access to
talks, where seating plans did not allow for wheelchair “parking”. I sat in the
aisles of the session rooms, blocking access for those hoping to get a proper
seat. It’s interesting, and a bit troublesome, that people don’t readily open
doors for someone in a wheelchair. My last gripe before talking about all the
good things that happened is accessibility to tables in restaurants. In several
places, I needed to use elevators or enter through a back door. But when I sat
at the table, the wheelchair with its footpads extending forward prevented me
from getting closer to the table than was comfortable for me, especially since
my dexterity at eating has declined.
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Bobby Mr. POM, AGU |
But
let’s get on to the good things!! After writing to my earth science colleagues
the week before and asking them to notice me in a wheelchair, they did! As we
strolled between sessions and buildings, I was treated with the delights of
hugging and shaking hands with people I thought I’d never see again. I also
have learned to shout out a person’s name when they were whisking briefly by.
Even that brief passing recognition and greeting had a tremendous positive
effect on my mental state.
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UCSC students and Fogel Lab folks at AGU |
My
schedule was to wake up around 7 am, take the “normal” three hours to get
ready, then head down to the Conference for 4-5 hours before returning to the
hotel, where I needed to be to use the bathroom. During that time, I could
attend oral sessions, poster sessions, have lunch, and meet with colleagues and
students from different labs. A favorite meetup was with UC Santa Cruz students
and my lab group at a table in the Biogeosciences section of the posters. Our
group faced Matt McCarthy’s lab group, exchanging research topics, plans, and
problems. Hands down—face-to-face interactions trump digital social media and
email. By 3-4 pm I was tired of sitting in a wheelchair, so propped my feet up
in the hotel room, taking a brief snooze before heading down to the hotel bar
at 6 pm. Every evening, my long-term colleagues—Giff Miller, Dave Baker, Anat
Shahar, Steve Shirey, Josh Viers—joined us, reconnecting in person. The
stimulation cannot be over stated.
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Ivar Mitkandl, AMASE colleague |
Then,
we rolled out of the hotel to restaurants around the City, meeting more people,
some of whom I hadn’t seen in decades. Thursday night’s meal was a highlight
with 30+ isotope colleagues hosted by Kate Freeman (Penn State) and me for community
building. The meal was first rate culminating a “feast” of science at the
session that we organized with Liz Sikes (Rutgers) and Hilairy Hartnett (ASU)
earlier in the day. The oral session was held in a packed room with our younger
colleagues (including Mr. POM Bobby Nakamoto) giving the talks. The session was
capped by a panel discussion that I participated in with Alex Sessions
(Caltech), Matt McCarthy, Kate Freeman, and Barbara Sherwood Lollar (Toronto).
As our meal ended, I kept the faces of these dear people in mental photographs.
When I’ll see them again, or if I will, I don’t know.
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The Thermo isotope ratio mass spec booth at AGU |
Wednesday
morning I was treated to recent Ph.D. Jon Nye’s presentation on public policy
and the looming scientific disaster at the Salton Sea in southern California.
He spoke to a crowd of policy-oriented scientists, who nodded their heads when
Jon outlined the new methods he’s using at UC Riverside to connect science
research with legislation and public policy. (Stay tuned for a blog on that
subject.) Jon’s often a shy, quiet young man, but is fast developing a speaking
skill that is engaging folks outside of his scientific discipline. I am
enormously proud of him.
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Jon Nye's policy talk, AGU |
Monday
night’s highlight was Doug Rumble’s retirement party. After nearly 50 years at
Carnegie’s Geophysical Laboratory, Doug’s cleaning out his lab of old waste
bromine-pentaflouride, boarding a flight this coming Friday for Flagstaff
Arizona where he’ll join his wife Karen in a much earned quieter life. The
party was filled with his former postdocs and students—which he claimed were
his intellectual superiors—a claim that could be argued given Doug’s abilities
to recognize and nurture brilliance when he sees it. Either way, it was a room
of geochemical talent not often gathered together. I was given the opportunity
to roast Doug, telling stories about our 35-year career sharing laboratories
and postdocs, forming a special friendship that transcends the usual collegial
relationship.
So,
back to that final poster session. I’d sweated over making my poster describing
results, findings, and ideas the week before. Not that many folks really wanted
to discuss the poster. They came to say goodbye and take selfies. I was
overwhelmed. How fortunate has my life
been to forge strong bonds and relationships with the people in my career and
work environment. These are people who have opened their hearts to me, and
the family. It was an emotionally charged moment for me. Given a tissue, I
dabbed at the tears and left the conference before fully blubbering.
Oh Marilyn, I am so glad that AGU was, on the whole, a good experience. I'm glad so many took the time to say hi and to celebrate the many accomplishments of your career and the relationships you've fostered. And I'm glad you blogged about it.
ReplyDeleteYour earlier blog posts encouraged me to say "hello" when I spotted you at the Moscone Center Friday. We've not worked together, but share the same years of scientific maturation. Your blog really hits home, and I'm very happy you have shared your many experiences with us. Positive messages in the face of struggles are things that truly inspire people!
ReplyDeleteIt was so awesome to see you smiling in your element. Science can be a cold profession sometimes but I felt a lot of warmth, love and even a little rock-star admiration around you at the meeting. I hope that feeling rolls on.
ReplyDeleteWe survived AGU 2019! Now let's take a SELFIE!
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